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Oct 17 - 3:50 pm] |
ACTUALLY,
this journal is DEAD,
after almost 2 years of runtime.
i'm making a new one,
& will post the username.
peace, kids.
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| We're real. |
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Oct 16 - 2:47 pm] |
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I love weekends like these, and days like today. I love October, almost as much as I love June, July and August. There's something in the air that sets the mood well. I miss the summer, but afterall, change is good. I miss writing what I truely feel, and I'm certainly tired of only telling how I feel when I have nothing good or important to say, and when I'm only disappointed and upset.
I love being completely happy and satisfied with myself and others. I have the best friends and the best boyfriend. Sure, that doesn't call for bragging rights, but if I ever said my life sucked, I lied. I have my days, weeks and even months when things simply arn't going my way. Who doesn't?, Then there are the people who have nothing to look forward to, and nothing positive in their life. I see now, that it gets hard, and then it's gets better. For every time something bad happens, something good will eventually follow, and vice versa.
I ditched the PSAT's on Saturday morning. I'm going to just study extra hard for the SAT's. I don't think that anything could make me get out of bed at 7:45 on a weekend, THANKS though.
I'm glad I got to spend time with you guys. I needed that. I need you both.
Grandparents are here.
THE END.
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| there's leaves all over the ground. this doesn't look right. |
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Oct 7 - 3:13 pm] |
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FUCKFUCKFUUUUCK.
i wan't to go to the WWG show tonight SO f'in bad, kids.
show season, and i haven't been able to get to any so far.
niiiiice.
school was..school.
4 day weekend and i can't do anything..
..thanks to my ghetto parents.
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| I HATE SCHOOL EVENTS. |
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Oct 6 - 3:41 pm] |
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He is Legend: I Am Hollywood |
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umm. boring day..nothing to really say about it.
a few funny things came about..but nothing that i should be writing about on here.
open house tonight? yeah..thanks, my mom is making me go. NICE.
so, cool. i get to trail through that piece of shit, with my mother.
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Oct 4 - 11:39 am] |
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Acceptance - Different |
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a day off.
nice, i thought i would be able to sleep in..
not likely.
i went to bed pretty early &
woke up around 9:00. wtf is that?!
THAT is not fun.
i could have been out doing so many other things..
seeing steph.
seeing zach.
seeing dani.
seeing lorin.
seeing wyatt.
seeing pat and the silly boo's.
but whatever, my mom is well..a mom.
so i have this english essay to do. those are always fun. ehem.
this entry is pointless. i'm trying to be active.
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| ♥;;;;weekend! |
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Sep 23 - 3:55 pm] |
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Switchfoot - Stars |
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FINALLY.
Friday.
Ahh,12th period. That class is an eternity+1/2 long. I felt like I was never going to leave there, or have any freedom from Spanish or that fucking lady.
I have never been so glad to hear the afternoon anouncements. Really.
Screw the football game..and all those people's parties. GO ahead, get shitfaced and jump into a pond. :x. I could do without that.
So Zach & Dani are coming over tomorrow.
Can't wait.
I miss Steph. I'm most likely coming to your house next weekend, be aware. :].
UMMM. Time to leave.
dadisgoingtothecitytonightforaCONCERT,withoutme.openhouse?no,ofcorsenot.duh.
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| blow up and die, cunts. |
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Sep 18 - 5:55 pm] |
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NONE!? |
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So today:
Woke up @ like 6.
Drove to NJ by 7:30ish to pick up Ann & Gerry from their seaport of their cruise.
Had to drive them through the city, to JFK.
It took longer than expected, oh joy.
BO-RING day.
Missed the show on Friday, & the one on Saturday..the usual.
No worries, because there's going to be a better show on Oct. 28th.
&& not to mention: better bands. it's 5min down the road and starts early, ends late.
Steph, Zach, Dani, Char, Andrew, Wyatt..etc. MEET US THERE.
SUP ORGY?
I DOOOO NOT want to go to school tomorrow, but who does?
How funny is it that I'm STILL reading the summer reading book. 70 pages to go and counting. Due Wednesday afternoon. Nice, Ashley..nice.
I read 4 books this summer, out of my own free will, but none were for the project of corse.
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| i'm selfish. |
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Sep 12 - 6:13 pm] |
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none. |
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it's going to be a long two weeks.
i miss you already,
& each day is only going to seem longer.
screw NYC.
& screw driving there on sunday.
i don't want to go.
so..i won't.
i guess 3 hrs. is better than nothing,
i'll take what i can get.
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| z♥ch. |
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Sep 11 - 4:12 pm] |
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 in love. <33 |
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if i ever said that i had a rough life, i lied.
this weekened has been one of the most amazing weekends of my life.
i could never have asked for better,
or at least never again.
you are amazing,
& i don't know what the world would be like without someone like you to love.
you make my heart melt over and over again,
and there is nothing better than that.
no one could ever compare to you.
i love you.
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Sep 9 - 6:23 pm] |
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daphne loves derby - hopless love |
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school was alriiiight..i wouldn't say good, but alright.
gym is nonsense.
..so is the teacher.
one day.
three people.
can't wait.
i don't have much else to say.
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| It's where the party's at. |
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Sep 8 - 5:25 pm] |
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Chiodos - There's No Penguins in Alaska |
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Yeah, so, school was much much better today. I'm finally starting to see more and more people. Niiice.
I've got a bunch of shit to look forward to:
This saturday: Zach & Steph fest, yes of corse.
Next Friday: Show at The Chance w/ Dani & Char.
--->Chiodos, Hot Cross, Fall of Troy, Asia Minor,...etc.
--->Doors open at 8pm, $10 to get in.
September 16th: Danielle's Sweet 16.
October 1st: Erin's sweet 16.
October 15th: Kelly's sweet 16.
UMMM. study time. boo.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZACHARY. ♥
i love you baby!
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| "Hi, I'm Matt & I like Bullseye BBQ sauce." - that made my year. |
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Sep 6 - 4:13 pm] |
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OHkay. So 1 day down. A slow, long and painful day..but I'm sure things will clear up. I hope things will clear up. 179 to go.
I hardly see ANYONE, A-N-Y-O-N-E at all..I don't think anyone from my classes last year are in my classes this year. Thank god for Christine being in my American Hist.[that class should be quite interesting.](Christine say's hi. :] <3) d Julie for being in Chem. & a few others in my other classes. Lunch just sucks because it's so damn late in the day. & they painted the cafeteria green, GREEN..like Mrs. Greene. Coinsedence, I think not.
I wish I hadn't complained about last year and how badly it sucked, because this year is so much worse, and it only goes by faster. When time is flying by like this, I just wish I could be spending it with people that I didn't get to see all summer. Now I know how it must feel to be in a new school..I might as well be, I don't see my old, good friends. I'm so tired of complaining and complaining and complaining some more but I just want a routine schedule that I can live with, one that I like. But hey, it's not all on the downside, it gives everyone an oppurtunity to become friends with everyone else, and to catch up with people that they lost touch with last year.
I need to see Steph.
& Zach.
and Dani and Lorin and EVERYONE that I haven't got to see ALL summer.
I miss you guys. I miss my friends, and I can't lose touch with them.
HOMEWORK time. yum. >:(.
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| summer has come & past, the innocent can never last. wake me up when september ends. |
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Sep 5 - 8:21 pm] |
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The Spill Canvas - The Tide |
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Alright, so in a few hours summer will be officially over. This completely SUCKS. I never thought I could hate a place so much. For some reason, this summer is different. Usually I'm in back to school mode by the end of August, not this time. I don't want to wake up tomorrow morning at 5:30, to be on the bus by 6:30 and at school but 7:39. & I don't want to have to deal with teachers or the work, but thats life & it makes me cringe. Oh well. Time to go get shit ready. I need to find a shirt that matches well with my jeans. As if that was the most important thing on my list, but whatev.
So long sweet summer.
<3333
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Sep 1 - 1:34 pm] |
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Dead Poetic - Glass in the Trees |
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Last night's entry was pathetic. I wanted to write more, but I had to get off.
The last vacation of the summer went as followed:
Friday the 19th:
Steph got her license in the morning, so she picked up Danielle around 12:ish and then came to pick me up. Then we had to go to Middletown to get money from my dad before we left for the beach. Got lost going there, and coming back. LOST in the GHETTO, that is. Scary times. So we finally made it to Steph's house, 3 hours later. Soon after we got there, we went to McDonald's, haha. Then we went to pick up flowers for Danielle's mom's anniversary, then went to her house so she could pack. Left there, went back to Steph's. Went to get our nails done later on that night, picked up some take-out from The Captains Table and went back to Steph's. Watched The Bride & The Predjudice later on. Sleep.
Saturday the 20th:
Woke up and sat around a little, packed everything back up and left for the beach around noon. Steph drove all the way there. Good talks. Some sleep. Some food. Got to the house around 4:ish [?]. I don't really remember. Then sat up in our room for a bit. Went to B&B to look for pants. Got a pair of black gaucho pants. Cute. Came home. Did whatever. Slept.
Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday are all basically a blur. Whatever we did on those days all mixes together. It's was all fun though. We drove around every day, tanned in the sun and in the salon, because we're fucking cool. Got Dunkin' Donuts probably every morning, and Baskin Robins or some type of ice cream almost every night. Attempted to go jet skiing, but we didn't end up doing it. Made a huge mess out of our room, day by day it just got worse. Went to the movies one night, saw Wedding Crashers. Good movie. Hysterical. We were supposed to hang with some kids when we came home that night, but they were assholes. The outside shower rocked more than ever. Had some peeping neighbors once again, oh well. Blew all my money within 4 days. Went to Jenkinson's Boardwalk [the cracked-out boardwalk, HAH.]one day. Fun times. Played UNO and Scrabble when we got bored. Made macaroni and cheese for a mid night snack on more than one occasion. Went through 3 gallons of Arizona Green Tea which is only my favorite drink ever. A&P made so much money off of us, because afterall, that IS the place to be. HAH. ummmm.
Monday the 29th:
We were supposed to go to Six Flags, but we didn't end up going because the weather was supposed to be shitty. So, instead, we hung around, drove around, got Subway for Lunch, watched Thirteen, then watched Hide and Seek. Got ready for Seaside and met up with Brian and his friends there for a little bit. Then they had to leave, so we went and visited our friend at the piercing place. I can't believe he still works there, it's been a while. "Dude, I saw Something Corporate live, yeah, that motherfucker set his piano on FIRE. *weird face* He was dancing around on it and shit. Crazy." Umm, he was cool. Then Steph and Alex played some games. Went home around 10:ish. Cleaned the room up and packed our shit so we didn't have to do it in the morning.
Tuesday the 30th:
We woke up at the ass crack of dawn to finish up the room and drive home. We left the house around 9:30. Got home at 12:15 or so. I hate to think that the beach house is going to be an entirely different house next summer, or might not be done by then. It wont look at all the same. But it will be year # 3 in a row. Amazing times. Danielle had to leave, so her mom came to pick her up. Then Steph and I left to go to the Shop Rite to get some stuff for the house because she had open house for two days. We went to get the car washed first, and then Frankie called. We ditched Shop Rite and went to Stop & Shop to meet up with Frankie and Diane, because Diane had just got off of work. Blared the music, and ghetto danced in the car. Tis fun. Went to some Japanese restaurant with them for lunch. Alex called us sometime in between so he met up with us for lunch too. Frankie and Diane went their own way to do whatever, and Alex followed us to Shop Rite, got some stuff, went back to Steph's. Alex came and went for a while. Frankie came home so we went to the Country to get Ooma some dessert. YUM. Came home. Frank went back nextdoor. Kenny came to get me around 5:45.
Yesterday:
I had a hair appointment at 10:00 so Melissa came and picked me up around 9:30 to go to the shop. No more shitty highlights or grown out layers. My hair is proudly healthy, layered and dark dark dark. FAB. Mom came and picked me up at like 12:00 went to the shit-eria [Galleria] to get some jeans. Went with $350 came home with $10. NIIICE.
Today:
Boredum.
So it's back to school in 5 days. I don't know which I hate more, waking up at 5:30, sitting on the bus or the work. I just want to go to see every one and wear my new clothes.
END.
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Aug 31 - 7:06 pm] |
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the spill canvas - so much |
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i don't understand where the summer went. i don't understand how it can just flash before you're eyes and it's gone. it's so odd to think about being a junior this year. it's true, every year just goes by faster and faster. and while that might be a good thing, it also sucks too. and it's sad. in two years, we'll all be going out serparate way. i don't know, it just scares me to think about it. i thought it would last forever. prom this year, i can't wait.
but in more recent news, my schedule completely BLOWS. BAH-LOWS.
it's worse than last year, but i don't think i can change any classes around to change it.
oh well.
tell me if you're in any of my classes. now.
here it is:
SCHEDULE:
1A: Study Hall- King
1B: Gym - Sesca
2: Chem - Harrison
3A: Chem Lab - Harrison
3B: Study Hall - Fallica
4: Yearbook/Information Processing - Haas
5/6: American History R - Blackwell
7/8: English R - Napolitano
9/10: Math B - King
11: Lunch
12: Spanish 4 - Dowd
i have to get off.
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| LAVALLETTE. |
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Aug 19 - 10:25 am] |
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Lorene Drive - For the Rest of Us |
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BEACH TOMORROW. BEACH TOMORROW. BEACH TOMORROW.
GOING TO THE BEACH TOMORROW.
BEACH BEACH BEACH BEACH.
WITH STEPHHHHHH & DANIEEEEELLLLE.
yeah. exitement.
SHE PASSED, PASSED HER ROAD TEST. YESS YES SHE DIDDDDD.
okaybye.
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Aug 17 - 3:15 pm] |
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The Higher - Pace Yourself |
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Last Friday:
Steph came to pick me up around 3:30.
Went to McDonalds, but I didn't eat anything. Already had my grease supply for the day.
Went home to Steph's for a bit.
Left for B.JAGS Beauty Salon around 4:45.
Stayed there for HOURS.
Went to the diner across the way.
Went home.
Alex came over because the cops crashed Jared's par-tay.
Last Saturday:
Woke up around 10:00 because Steph had a driving lesson.
She left.
watched the Coneheads with Jimmy and ate some eggs. :].
Steph came home.
Shower time.
Chris & Jess came over for the day.
Got ready for Gina's Sweet 16 around 6:30.
Went late. Fashionably late that is.
Talked with some cool people.
Left around 11:00.
Went home to eat..& passsss out.
Last Sunday:
Dad called around 9:30 to let me know that he was on his way to pick me up.
That really pissed me off because we were supposed to hang out with Diane.
Whatever.
Went home and sat on my ass all day long.
Watched a total of 5 movies.
LAZY PERSON. I think YES.
Dinner with the family.
Watched the new Six Feet Under.
Phone & Sleep.
LAZY PERSON? I think YES.
Monday:
Sat around all day again, I have no life as of right now.
Had to be one step behind the new puppy at all times. He's always making a damn mess out of everything.
Laundry.
Kenny drove me to Mom's house early.
Caught up on some shows that I've missed.
Phone.
Sleep.
Tuesday:
Woke up around 11:00.
Sat around being bored all day.
Dani was working I think & no ride to Steph's house.
Found some interesting things on Myspace, things I might have rather not seen.
TRUST. Perhaps the word of the week.
Bored all day, pretty sad if you ask me.
I wanted to go for a run, but then it rained.
Dinner.
T.V.
Phone then sleep.
Today:
Mom woke me up around 10:00.
Got ready, went to Hannafords with her and Dylan.
Then McDonalds. I hate that fucking place.
Had a salad, again.
Yogurt is only good for you if you eat one. HAH.
Dylan wants me to go swimming with him, but I refuse. He's an animal.
I'd much rather be bored.
So now I'm just sitting here.
Haven't heard from Zach all day.
Hmmm..
Why do I write in here, no one reads it anyway.
I'm tired of typing in list form. So..I thought I would never say this, but I sort of want school to start. I miss some people, other not so much. Either that, or Saturday needs to come real fast. I can't wait for the beach. It'll be the last time we get to see the house the way it is. Steph get's her license on Friday. Road fucking triiiiip. YEAH. Now I'm going to eat some kiwi because I'm cool & I bought some today.
♥
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| time flies, having fun or not. |
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Aug 10 - 6:52 pm] |
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So it's been a while..again. It doesn't suprise me..I always make my way to forget about the good ol' LJ. Well, I'm back for now. I'm not as busy & I actually have time to waste writing in here.
The summer has been interesting. I seems like it has been forever since school. But hey, I'm definatly not complaining about that. I mean I miss everyone, & I'd like to see them, but I don't want to go back to take orders from teachers & break my back over their assignments.
Let's see..The Sweet 16 party. Went to NJ shore twice. FL with Steph & Andrew. England/The UK & France. Two parties this weekend. Probably back to the shore sometime next week. Seeing Zach. Helping out at the 9th grade orientation the the HS on AUG. 30th. Then back to school on SEPT. fucking6th. :[.
I miss Steph & Danielle & Dani & Lorin. I miss everyone and I hate it.
I don't have the ability to organize my thoughts right now. I'm so tired.
I need to get into shape before school, It's gotten ridiculous over the summer.
Zach needs to call me like right now.
raaah.
dinner time. fo' get this, yo.
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